Wednesday, 20 June 2018

Losing Myself to My Mental Health

Hello, lovelies.

Wow, it's been a while, huh?

The last year has been... weird, in the mental sense of the word. I'm in a lovely relationship, I have a lovely house, to the outside world I am thriving. However, my mental health has recently taken quite the beating.

As most of you know, throughout my youth I suffered badly with anorexia, and whilst I am still clean and recovered, the little voice in my head - who we shall be calling Ana - is getting a little bit harder to ignore every single day. She doesn't care if my recent weight gain has been due to medication changes, or fibromyalgia flares, or well, anything. My newly formed stretch marks are a sign of failure to Ana.

I feel as though I have completely lost myself to the dark space of my mind the last year, despite all the happy things that have come into my life. The phrase "mental illness doesn't discriminate" has an all new meaning to me now. My boyfriend, James, is the light I have been focussing on.

I'm constantly questioning myself. Do I still love makeup? Yes. Do I still want to be a makeup artist? I don't know. Do I still love my body? Definitely not. Do I still wish I could disappear?... Sometimes. 

My mental health takes a toll on my physical health, my physical health takes a toll on my mental health. It's a vicious circle that is getting harder and harder to jump out of the longer I roll around in it. The worse my fibromyalgia gets, the worse my state of mind gets.

I know I preach yoga, meditation, all that jazz, but it hasn't helped. Long walks haven't helped. The Gym hasn't helped. I feel like nothing is helping, and the old, happy and mentally stable me is just a strange daydream I had, which is strange because I wouldn't say I'm not happy.

I'm so in love with James, with my house, with my friends, with everyone I have surrounded myself with. They are the right people. The people I have been searching for for years. In that sense, I am happy.

Mental health is something that no one can really get a grip on, and I need to stop beating myself up for having bad days. Even if they are more frequented than the good days at this point.

I want to get back into my blog writing, as it's such a good way to get words out, but I can't promise I'll be any good at it anymore.

Much love,

Ree xo

Tuesday, 1 August 2017

July Beauty Favourites

Hello, lovelies!

How freaking crazy is it that it's August already? I'm mind blown, and slightly scared.

This month has been an absolute whirlwind for me, I got a new job in a salon as their makeup artist AND its starting to sink in that I'm actually going to be going to college to study what I love and get my qualifications. My own little salon is getting more and more possible, and it's terrifying.

I have a whole list of things that I adored this month, so I'll jump right on into the post rather than ramble any more!

Morphe 35OS & 35P Palettes

These were my first ever Morphe palettes, and I absolutely adore them. They are honestly like my children. The 35OS is a re-vamp of their iconic 35O with a lot of shimmer added, and I just freaking love shimmer. 35P is a lot more matte with some shimmers added in, and a mix of browns and purples, the looks that can be created with these palettes blow my mind. I find myself reaching for one or the other of these palettes almost daily now. 

Certifeye 'Orion' Lashes & Majestic Palette

If you've seen my Twitter, you'll have seen me fangirl several times over Certifeye, their amazing products and beauty of an owner. I love everything about this brand. Orion lashes are dramatic and fluffy, and I wear them every single chance I get. Be it for a big night out or a family dinner, they are my be all and end all of falsies. The Majestic palette can be used as eyeshadows, highlights, and blushes, but I mostly use it on my eyes. 'Royalty' is my perfect transition shade and is by far my most used in the palette, alongside 'Imperial', 'Power' and 'Regal'. 

Zoeva Rose Golden Trio

I use this on both myself and my clients, and we all love it. It's a simple palette that I found in the Travel section of beauty bay, so it's perfect for sticking in your hand luggage. The top shade is a matte, cocoa brown perfect for contouring, the middle shade is a pure white, perfect for highlighting and setting under your eyes, and the bottom shade is a pink, shimmery blush. It gives your cheeks that perfect, summery glow, and I would recommend it to anyone!

Morphe Liquid Lipstick in 'Vanity'

I wasn't even slightly concerned about not liking this when I bought it, and I wasn't wrong. It's creamy, applies like a dream, and smells freaking beautiful. It dries matte and does not smudge for anything, trust me. I wore this on a date and it didn't even move during kisses. It looked a lot pinker on the website but in real life it is more like a light purple, and it's my daily go to currently. 

Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Pomade in Dark Brown

Are you truly a beauty blogger if you haven't raved about this product? I only just recently got my hands on it and I honestly don't think I could live without it now. I feel naked when I'm not wearing it. It lasts a full day in the salon paired with their clear brow gel, and it doesn't feel heavy or like your brows are glued down onto your face, which is definitely a plus. 

Zoeva Graphic Lash Mascara, Cat Eye Pen, and Black Box Khol Liner

What a mouthful of a title, huh? I paired these three together as I wanted to trim down the length of this post, and felt like these are pretty self explanatory products. I use them daily, and after using the same brand of khol liner for years (Thanks, Avon.) I finally decided to jump ship and try a new one, and I am SO glad I did. The mascara applies wonderfully, has an amazing, thick brush and doesn't clump or flake after a couple of hours. The Khol Liner is a wonderfully creamy pencil, and stays on my waterline wonderfully during the day with only the tiniest little bit of smudging that I don't mind because I live for grungy eye looks. The Cat Eye Pen liquid liner dries matte and again, applies like a dream. It doesn't crease, it doesn't fade, and it keeps me looking tip top during those ten hour shifts.

Marc Jacobs 'Daisy'

One of my mum's friends brought this back for her from his holiday, and I had to pinch it because I love it so much. Fruity and floral, it has the perfect summer scent for me, and it makes me feel like a literal princess when I wear it. It's beautiful, and it's my staple scent this summer. 

Oh boy, what a list! I hope you enjoyed reading, my lovelies! 

Side note, I have started an instagram solely for my makeup and client pictures, so if you want to pop it a follow I am over at @reeroganmakeup! 

See you next time, then!

Ree xo 

Tuesday, 30 May 2017

Taking A Break

Hello, lovelies!

You may ave noticed my absence this month - and the reason for that is, I hit a wall. I couldn't think of content, I had started a new medication that messed with my body, my body hurt, and I spent most of this month asleep. I put far too much pressure on myself with 5 blog posts a week, which exhausted me both mentally and physically.

The last two weeks have been better, and I'm back, and better than ever.

I done something scary - I went to a salon, and I cut my hair. Might not sound scary, right? Well, I hadn't been to a proper salon in a long ass time, and taking the leap to actually go and get my hair done properly wasn't an easy one. I cried to my best friend the night before because I was so nervous, but it turned out beautifully, and since then, I've felt better.

I've started to feel like myself again, I've started to get out of bed before 2pm again, and, thankfully, I'm blogging again, which feels great.

Thank you for sticking around, if you have, and if you're just joining us - welcome, I hope you're ready for this crazy ride.

I'll see you next time, then.

Ree xo

Saturday, 22 April 2017

Morphe "Candy Apple Red" Brush Set Review

Hello, lovelies!

Recently I decided to treat myself and buy some new makeup brushes, because my stash was seriously running low with the amount of brushes that were breaking, or had their hairs falling out. Please see below for the most heartbreaking moment of my life:

It's upsetting me even looking at it.

Anyway, I decided to treat myself to a set of Morphe brushes I saw on BeautyBay and totally fell head over heels with! The Morphe 700 8 piece "Candy Apple Red" Brush Set!

For £13.50 I couldn't really pass these beauties up! They're obviously of the highest Morphe standard, and they came packaged in a gorgeous red pouch, which I have obviously kept as I can't bring myself to throw away any type of brush pouch.

Composed of 8 brushes, ranging from big fluffy face brushes to the tiniest liner brush I have ever seen, the fact this set was only £13.50 literally blows my mind. Where else can you get Morphe brushes for that little?!

I've taken pictures of each of the individual brushes for you all to see, so here we go!

Tapered Powder Brush

Tapered Blush Brush 

Flat Foundation Brush

Oval Fluff Brush

Chisel Fluff Brush

Pointed Crease Brush

Angled Liner Brush

Bent Liner Brush

Aren't they beautiful?! I am so enamoured with them that when they first arrived I just stared at them for a while, before just brushing the powder brush against my face to test how soft it was. My mum laughed, but it was definitely one of the high points of my week. You guys understand, right? 

You can purchase these brushes HERE 

They are truly some of the best brushes I have ever bought, truly living up to their Morphe name.

Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! And as always -

I'll see you next time, then. 

Ree xo 

Friday, 21 April 2017

My Favourite Budget Eyelashes

Hello, lovelies!

For someone who only started wearing false lashes last year, they have very quickly become one of my favourite things about doing my makeup. I honestly feel like my face is naked without lashes, even if I'm wearing full coverage everything.  

I have tried more than enough pairs of budget eyelashes to find out which ones are my favourites, and the two I'm about to show you all are the two I always go back to. As much as I love my Eldora lashes, Eyelure were my first love.

The first pair I have dubbed as my "serious" pair. Aka - the ones I'll wear to interviews, lunches, other "adult" type things that require me to wear makeup.

They are the Eyelure 110's for "Definition"

Soft and fluttery, these lashes aren't designed to make an impact, but more to make your natural lashes look fuller and, obviously, more defined. They're a lot lighter than lashes I'm used to but I adore them, and with a coating of mascara they really are beautiful. I wish I had a photo to show you how lovely they are on, but I don't, so you're just going to have to take my word for it.

You can get these in pretty much any high street beauty store, like Boots, Superdrug, Bodycare etc. and they retail for roughly £3! Cheap and cheerful but definitely preform like higher end lashes, so they are definitely a steal.

Next up are what I call my "Party lashes" - big and bold and LONG.

They are the Eyelure 202's for Drama!

I. Freaking. LOVE. These. Lashes.

I am all about dramatic makeup, it makes me so beyond happy, so whenever I get a chance to break out these bad boys, I'm in my element. For some people these are definitely too heavy on the lid, but I'm prepared to suffer the 30 minutes or so it takes to get used to them, just because they look so good with big winged eyeliner, aka my go-to night out look.

I wore these to a wedding last July and the whole day I got so many compliments on them! They truly are breathtaking on, and I love them beyond words. Please, if you get the chance, try them. Again they are found in most, if not all, high street beauty stores for £4! A bargain!

The key to my heart? Falsies.

Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! And as always -

I'll see you next time, then.

Ree xo

Wednesday, 19 April 2017

How I Deal With Chronic Pain

Hello, lovelies!

If you've been reading my blog recently, you'll know I suffer with a great deal of Chronic pain, from lots of different sources. The main being Fibromyalgia, a rheumatic muscle condition that causes pain, tenderness and fatigue. Or, in simpler terms, it's like having arthritis in my muscles.

It's a constant ache, sometimes only a dull ache I can push to the back of my mind and ignore while I try to get on with life, other-times it is completely debilitating, stopping me from getting out of bed for days. It's obviously different for every one, but for me, the pain comes in the form of stabbing in my joints, stiff muscles, constant migraine-like headaches, being forever itchy, and, weirdly, being freezing cold. All. The. Time.

There's loads of different ways people have suggested to me for helping ease the pain to help me deal with it, but these are the ones I have found the most effective. Although they may be disputed, and people who suffer the same as me might read this list and think "pfft, that won't help at all," these are what helps my body.

1. Hot Baths

This is one of those things that lots of other people suffering with Fibro don't find helpful, because in the long rung, it isn't. But in the short term? It's blissful. It's peace and quiet, it's warm, it's letting my body float in water and not having to put pressure on any of my muscles. Sure, actually getting in and out of the bath can be a whole different pain in itself (I have actually had to have friends lift me out,) the smells of lavender bubbles/bath bombs and the heat FINALLY getting into my body and warming me up for the first time that day. It's definitely only a short term relief, but it's one of my favourites, and the best. 

2. Yoga

I can literally hear other Fibro suffers groaning, but hear me out. On the days when my pain isn't as bad, having a good yoga session really helps me connect with my body. It helps me spend time focusing on the muscles that have been bringing me the most pain, and giving them the time and attention they need. Small stretches work just as well if you can't commit to a full yoga session.

3. Aloe Vera

Aloe Vera is my saviour. I suffer most of my itching in my legs, and it drives me crazy. I use Vaseline's "Aloe Soothe Lotion" and it is like Heaven in a bottle. For only £3 it's an absolute steal, and soothes the itching pretty much instantly. There isn't much else to say, but please, if itching is something you suffer with, at least try this. 

4. Sleeping

Really. Sleeping. Sure, finding a comfortable position is tough, but once/if you do manage, a nap is pretty much the best escape from the pains, both physically and mentally. 

I'm sorry this post is so short - I had a very busy Easter weekend and now I'm paying for it! I couldn't get out of bed until 5pm today, my body was just too exhausted. 

Thank you for reading, and as always -

I'll see you next time, then. 

Ree xo

Monday, 17 April 2017

My Travel Skincare Essentials

Hello, lovelies!

So, on Saturday, I made a post about how much I love travelling, and I thought I would do a series of travel related posts. Keeping with the beauty/lifestyle style of my blog, I figured lets do the most important things first. Skincare.

Skincare is literally one of the most important things in my life. I wish I was joking. No matter where I am, who I'm with, or what time it is, I always make time to fit in my skincare routine. Now obviously when I'm travelling I have a very limited access to my full supply of products, but I always take my trusted and true, which, of course, is mostly made up of Soap and Glory. For any occasion, no matter what, birthday, Easter, Christmas, or even just a Saturday sale, I get Soap and Glory gift sets.

There are a few things I have left off this list, like hand sanitiser, lip balm etc, this is just the things I use mid-travel. Like when we stop off at service stations, or I've been on a flight or train for a ridiculous amount of hours, these are my refreshers.

First off, hand cream.

Soap&Glory's 'Hand Food' has been my go to hand cream since I was in high school. I've switched up scents over the years but the formula has always been the same, thick and creamy and moisturising. I am a massive germaphobe, so I've always got at least two different types of sanitiser on me, using one after the other, especially on public transport, and then I follow with my trusty hand food. My beautiful baby.

Next, face moisturiser.

This little beauty you can pick up in Tesco, Asda, Bodycare, pretty much any store that stocks skincare that isn't extremely high end. It's only 99p, and you get an amazing amount of product for such a little tub (it can go in your hand luggage with no problem). You can use it for body, hands and your face, but I personally use it for just my face. Sometimes travelling can take a toll on your face, the recycled air making your skin dry and irritated, so I always have this to hand. Plus, its super moisturising, and smells amazing.

Now, I switch between these two products, but always have both with me: moisturisers.

Again, both Soap&Glory. Again, both absolutely beautiful. I have been known to disappear into the plane bathrooms just to use these, because I feel like I need a little bit of pampering. 'The Righteous Butter' is the original S&G body butter, and it's got the classic rose and bergamot scent. 'Sugar Crush' is for when I need a little bit of a 'ZING' in my life. It's citrusy, sugary, sweet and zingy! It wakes me up instantly. My bathroom is full of these travel sized products, because even when I'm not travelling, they're perfect for taking to visit friends, and it saves a heck of a lot of space.

These four products save my life whenever I need them to, and I will live by them until I find anything that makes me feel even half as good as these do.

I hope you enjoyed this post, thank you for reading, and as always -

I'll see you next time, then.

Ree xo